Meshka's Flow

As a young lady growing up, you were always told
“There’s a list of things that you will do before you get too old.”
1. You’re going to meet a boy and fall in love
     He’s going to be sent to you straight from above
2. You’re going to go to the church where you will be married
     Over the threshold is where you will be carried
3. Don’t wait too long to start making some babies
     No ifs, ands, buts, or even maybes
4. You will serve your husband, raise the kids, and keep a perfect house
     Don’t forget to stay as quiet as a mouse
These are the goals of a future mother and wife
All you have to do is create a perfect life
The one thing that anybody fails to mention and bring to light
What if I am broken and cannot get it right?
What if my husband is actually a wife?
Does this shatter my future of having the perfect life?
What if I am broken and cannot create a baby?
What if that part of me is always a maybe?
What if I do not have the ability to keep quiet?
What if all I want to do is start a riot?
What if I have a different vision for my life?
Does this mean that I cannot be the perfect wife?
What if I do not do the things that you say?
What if I want to pick and choose and light my own way?
What if all these questions remain unspoken?
Does this mean you think I am just broken?

February 7, 2026